Dad has been gone 17 years and mom now 5 years.  It has been a struggle sometimes for me without my mom.  My mom and I had grown close and she was my best friend.  I wish she was still here to talk to and listen to.  I will catch myself remembering things that she said or that we did together and it makes me smile.  I would have never thought that she would have passed that day.  I wanted her to see me complete college and earn my bachelors degree.  I know she was proud of me for going back to school and that made me happy.  It's getting close now mom.  I am graduating this October and I am excited and scared all at the same time.  I wonder what advice you would give me if you were here, physically.  You are always with me in my heart, but I wish you were here physically as well.  I wish you were here for Adrianna too.   I am going back to church now and I even get there early.  Don't roll in your grave now okay.  Miracles happen every day mom.  I had to get some stuff off of my chest and once I did that I was ready to go back.  I am getting involved in Heartfelt for women and I am going to start singing again too.  Mom, I miss you so much.  I am trying to do better with my life.  I will always love you and my heart will always have a piece missing since you are gone.
Good night.